Joyful summer and 'lovely' people

I've been living at my dad's house for a few days now and it's more comfortable than I imagined. Though yesterday I came home quite late so my dad was furious over it since I hadn't informed him in any way. I agree I was at fault, but I am not really used to the fact that people are waiting for me. His girlfriend told me that, he was actually thinking of giving me a crack of the whip. I started thinking, that if he'd actually try to do that I'd truthfully tell him that, if he'd do that I'd march to the police station and make a report out of him. Even if it'd mean that he'd throw me out of the house.

Today I got a nice little lecture from my dad's girlfriend, of how I seem to be so lazy, and always running from work, and how I care about nothing or no one, how I don't have any direction in life and all other crap. I'm feeling so happy at the moment...

She came to make sure I didn't upset myself and explained how she was just worried of me 'cause she wants what's best for me. And she wanted to have a chat with me 'cause she didn't think anyone else really tried to help me. She felt like she had to do something.
She'd probably tell me what a piece of shit I am if she knew all my depression shits and all the stupid things I've done.

I'm guessing she actually really cares about me, but it just pisses me of that she thinks so lowly of me...

Nice day and all~

...sorry for the essay...

Random angst and some thinspiration

First there is just some random angst of mine and then there are the pretty thinspiration pictures.

Today's intake about 800 calories, but still I feel an empty feeling in my stomach, I really like it it's rather relaxing, even if I feel a bit dizzy. Tomorrow I'll do even better.

Good day, but I just don't think I really fit in...

Today I had quite a good day, I only ate 4 pieces of bread and some tuna with it, other than than 5 mandarins, I counted that all together it makes 670 calories. I'm staying at my friends, so I can't really eat that much, since it isn't my food. Even though I feel quite proud of how little I ate, it kinda gets me down when my friend looks horrified at you like"omg you ate that much", when I say I ate 4 pieces of bread...but I haven't really eaten anything else, no warm food or anything...am I really such a major fat-ass....

Well I'm hoping that the next I go to the gym I can see some improvement.

We went to watch Titanic 3D, I was quite skeptical about it 'cause I didn't think they could really turn it to a good 3D-movie. But it was actually quite good, and the movie was as great as ever, though I noticed few things that

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"Resist the temptation to take a nap after a large meal. If you stay awake a few hours longer and take a 20 minute walk, your body will use some of the extra calories for energy instead of storing them as fat."

I'm seeing red..

Yesterday morning, I suddenly had a nosebleed, so now I've started to eat all sorts of vitamins etc, since my daily food take isn't so big. It feels stupid, that every time I eat just a bit less I start getting nosebleeds...


Yesterday, was quite a fail since I went to a Chinese buffet, so I ate a lot more than I should have, but other than that...I only ate a bread and a carrot. ; D

And we walked at the city for 4 hours and went to few shops and to a flea market(it was 5 km far) So at least we got some good exercise and I got myself a belt, a skirt and a bit different red hair color.