Stress-escapes and fairies

I've been really stressed out with school and work. Everyday at work we're told to " Push it!"

Then before school starts I have a little time to do my homework, or stuff sweets into my mouth... Yesterday and today I ate two jelly rolls....... okay they weren't normal sized, but still they we're 200 grams...which is a lot in my opinion...

Now I'll seriously get a grip of myself and fucking lose weight and get fit!

I just became friends with this absolutely gorgeous girl. She is really skinny like a fragile little fairy, so so beautiful and delicate. Aaand also smart, funny and has good values. 

Maybe I have a bit of a crush ~ 

New strength & new challenges

Lovely song, that fits my thought perfectly at the moment

I'm trying to get myself ready to school, I'm thinking of starting to go to Yoga-classes in the morning on mondays. I'm hoping it will give me some strength for the upcoming week. My school starts near the end of this month. I hope I'll get my driver's license before that, so that I can go visit my friends where I used to live. I really miss them a lot. I got used to spending time with them almost all the time.

 I have been writing some lyrics, haven't really had the nerve to compose anything to it. I guess I'm not confident with the guitar yet. I wish I had my piano here~

I saw this amazing movie with Keanu Reeves on it(I really love him as an actor he's just amazing) called "A Walk in the Clouds"

"A glorious romantic fantasy, aflame with passion and bittersweet longing. One needs perhaps to have a little of these qualities in one's soul to respond fully to the film, which to a jaundiced eye might look like overworked melodrama, but that to me sang with innocence and trust ... At a time when movies seem obligated to be cynical, when it is easier to snicker than to sigh, what a relief this film is!" -- Roger Ebert of the Chicago Sun-Times.

                       This is how I sometimes feel when we are eating with my three siblings...

               I really got to start focusing on school if I ever want to achieve anything -.-

Drunk yards and pathetic actions

I've been just drinking these past week at least 3 times a week since the schools where going to end...not like I'd  actually been to school... My school report isn't really pretty to look at. I've been to 5 courses within 2 years, I'm such a hardworker. And because of it I'm now moving to my dad's place...we'll see how that'll go... all my good friends are now far far away.

Missing them already, but many of them promised to come visit me. I have great friends. Hopefully I'll be able to recreate some old friendships, that I have where I'm going to. At least I have my guitar, it'll me a great mental support.

Nowadays I've been drinking all the time, I've shared some drunk kisses with few of my friends, and couple days ago while we were playing this drinking game, I got one good, long kiss from this really hot guy(now I know what they mean when they're speaking of sparkles). I was a bit shocked, but in a good way, he was a gooood kisser.

We cuddled a bit that night and he would've wanted to sleep next to me, but since I'm quite shy and moving far away I figured it wouldn't be that smart.
 But now I feel like I actually have a chance to get someone, someone to love. I've always thought that people only think of me as good friend and nobody actually gets attracted to me.

Good day, but I just don't think I really fit in...

Today I had quite a good day, I only ate 4 pieces of bread and some tuna with it, other than than 5 mandarins, I counted that all together it makes 670 calories. I'm staying at my friends, so I can't really eat that much, since it isn't my food. Even though I feel quite proud of how little I ate, it kinda gets me down when my friend looks horrified at you like"omg you ate that much", when I say I ate 4 pieces of bread...but I haven't really eaten anything else, no warm food or anything...am I really such a major fat-ass....

Well I'm hoping that the next I go to the gym I can see some improvement.

We went to watch Titanic 3D, I was quite skeptical about it 'cause I didn't think they could really turn it to a good 3D-movie. But it was actually quite good, and the movie was as great as ever, though I noticed few things that

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"Resist the temptation to take a nap after a large meal. If you stay awake a few hours longer and take a 20 minute walk, your body will use some of the extra calories for energy instead of storing them as fat."