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Sunday, 28 October 2012

When you're close to the bottom...


Yesterday I was a mental support for my big crush, because he was having hard time after he had broken up with her girlfriend. But seriously the way he did it.....
He broke up with her on facebook, how awful is that... Straight from the "Guidebook to being an asshole"-book. But he had said that he'd like to talk about it later, if she's willing to see him. But in my opinion he could have done when they were speaking face-to-face.


Then he opened up to me about the reason why he did it. It was because he and and his ex from few years back had decided to try again. Since they had finally admitted that they were still madly in love with each other and couldn't be without each other.. . .

I was pretty shocked. . .
I've never tried to make a move on him, because he almost always had a girlfriend. But I always knew they weren't so special to him, even if he made them believe so.
But I didn't know he had already found his other half. . .she had just dumped him before...
And it clearly was all my imagination that we had some sort of special bond...
I always thought that we had such a similar perspective on life and had lots of things in common, but also in some ways we were the opposites of each other. And he was there for me during my darkest hours. He took me to sleep in his arms once in a while and those nights were warm and peaceful.

So I'm still in some sort of zombie-state or something...it just came totally out of blue. And with all the shit that's been going on lately I'm just trying not to fall apart. I guess, I just thought that someday we'd end up together.



What a stupid, pathetic person I am.





off to sleep now -->

Tuesday, 7 August 2012

New strength & new challenges

Lovely song, that fits my thought perfectly at the moment
I'm trying to get myself ready to school, I'm thinking of starting to go to Yoga-classes in the morning on mondays. I'm hoping it will give me some strength for the upcoming week. My school starts near the end of this month. I hope I'll get my driver's license before that, so that I can go visit my friends where I used to live. I really miss them a lot. I got used to spending time with them almost all the time.




 I have been writing some lyrics, haven't really had the nerve to compose anything to it. I guess I'm not confident with the guitar yet. I wish I had my piano here~

I saw this amazing movie with Keanu Reeves on it(I really love him as an actor he's just amazing) called "A Walk in the Clouds"
"A glorious romantic fantasy, aflame with passion and bittersweet longing. One needs perhaps to have a little of these qualities in one's soul to respond fully to the film, which to a jaundiced eye might look like overworked melodrama, but that to me sang with innocence and trust ... At a time when movies seem obligated to be cynical, when it is easier to snicker than to sigh, what a relief this film is!" -- Roger Ebert of the Chicago Sun-Times.

                       This is how I sometimes feel when we are eating with my three siblings...

               I really got to start focusing on school if I ever want to achieve anything -.-

Tuesday, 31 July 2012

Today I finally had a peaceful day~

I've been really busy with work so I haven't really had time to do anything. Usually when I had a bit of free time I just played guitar or piano, or talked with friends on FB and watched tv. I've been quite happy since I haven't really had time to worry about anything, though sometimes I've really missed some people far away from me.
Couple days back I managed to do one pull-up!! For the first time in my life ;D
happyy~


I have really been missing one friend of mine, that played guitar really smoothly, quite like that.
It was really calming, as well as him...
But sometimes so wild you just burst out laughing,
great times~


I almost couldn't sleep...I just wanted cherish the moment...


 But then off to different inspiration, I found a few great thinspiration pictures.











Listen to Ryan!  : D


Monday, 25 June 2012

List 10 things that make you happy - challenge

List things, that make you happy and in no particular order.The challenge is that, you have to list at least ten things, that make you happy (if you get the challenge again, you have to list at least five more). Pass the challenge to five other bloggers. Tell them they've gotten the challenge and mention those who have received the challenge in your post (link it, if their blog is public).

Listaa asioita, jotka tuovat hyvää mieltä ja ihan sekalaisessa järjestyksessä. Haasteeseen kuuluu jakaa vähintään kymmenen hyvän mielen asiaa (jos saa haasteen uudelleen, niin ainakin viisi lisää). Anna eteenpäin viidelle bloggaajalle. Kerro heille, että he ovat saaneet haasteen, sekä mainitse haasteen antaja postauksessasi (linkitä, jos hänen bloginsa on julkinen).

-Playing guitar, piano &singing


-Riding a bike, Skiing, rollerblading, swimming & hiking


-watching asian series online (""Love rain" currently)


-beautiful clothes (especially dresses)



-good music
-FRIENDS (good friends can save you from the worst moments you can confront)


-hugs (and overall being close to someone)


-cooking
-learning new things (and teaching new things to other people)
-successful makeup and hairdo
-photographing
-fairies, pets, tigers


-losing weight



-good books or mangas
-red things


The challenge goes to: Marzu, Sophia, Miika, Sheena