Showing posts with label peaceful. Show all posts
Showing posts with label peaceful. Show all posts

Sunday, 28 October 2012

When you're close to the bottom...


Yesterday I was a mental support for my big crush, because he was having hard time after he had broken up with her girlfriend. But seriously the way he did it.....
He broke up with her on facebook, how awful is that... Straight from the "Guidebook to being an asshole"-book. But he had said that he'd like to talk about it later, if she's willing to see him. But in my opinion he could have done when they were speaking face-to-face.


Then he opened up to me about the reason why he did it. It was because he and and his ex from few years back had decided to try again. Since they had finally admitted that they were still madly in love with each other and couldn't be without each other.. . .

I was pretty shocked. . .
I've never tried to make a move on him, because he almost always had a girlfriend. But I always knew they weren't so special to him, even if he made them believe so.
But I didn't know he had already found his other half. . .she had just dumped him before...
And it clearly was all my imagination that we had some sort of special bond...
I always thought that we had such a similar perspective on life and had lots of things in common, but also in some ways we were the opposites of each other. And he was there for me during my darkest hours. He took me to sleep in his arms once in a while and those nights were warm and peaceful.

So I'm still in some sort of zombie-state or something...it just came totally out of blue. And with all the shit that's been going on lately I'm just trying not to fall apart. I guess, I just thought that someday we'd end up together.



What a stupid, pathetic person I am.





off to sleep now -->

Tuesday, 31 July 2012

Today I finally had a peaceful day~

I've been really busy with work so I haven't really had time to do anything. Usually when I had a bit of free time I just played guitar or piano, or talked with friends on FB and watched tv. I've been quite happy since I haven't really had time to worry about anything, though sometimes I've really missed some people far away from me.
Couple days back I managed to do one pull-up!! For the first time in my life ;D
happyy~


I have really been missing one friend of mine, that played guitar really smoothly, quite like that.
It was really calming, as well as him...
But sometimes so wild you just burst out laughing,
great times~


I almost couldn't sleep...I just wanted cherish the moment...


 But then off to different inspiration, I found a few great thinspiration pictures.











Listen to Ryan!  : D