Grasping to the beautiful times: When you're close to the bottom...

Yesterday I was a mental support for my big crush, because he was having hard time after he had broken up with her girlfriend. But seriously the way he did it.....
He broke up with her on facebook, how awful is that... Straight from the "Guidebook to being an asshole"-book. But he had said that he'd like to talk about it later, if she's willing to see him. But in my opinion he could have done when they were speaking face-to-face.

Then he opened up to me about the reason why he did it. It was because he and and his ex from few years back had decided to try again. Since they had finally admitted that they were still madly in love with each other and couldn't be without each other.. . .

I was pretty shocked. . .
I've never tried to make a move on him, because he almost always had a girlfriend. But I always knew they weren't so special to him, even if he made them believe so.
But I didn't know he had already found his other half. . .she had just dumped him before...
And it clearly was all my imagination that we had some sort of special bond...
I always thought that we had such a similar perspective on life and had lots of things in common, but also in some ways we were the opposites of each other. And he was there for me during my darkest hours. He took me to sleep in his arms once in a while and those nights were warm and peaceful.

So I'm still in some sort of zombie-state or something...it just came totally out of blue. And with all the shit that's been going on lately I'm just trying not to fall apart. I guess, I just thought that someday we'd end up together.