Just Random Beautiful Things

When you're close to the bottom...

Yesterday I was a mental support for my big crush, because he was having hard time after he had broken up with her girlfriend. But seriously the way he did it.....
He broke up with her on facebook, how awful is that... Straight from the "Guidebook to being an asshole"-book. But he had said that he'd like to talk about it later, if she's willing to see him. But in my opinion he could have done when they were speaking face-to-face.

Then he opened up to me about the reason why he did it. It was because he and and his ex from few years back had decided to try again. Since they had finally admitted that they were still madly in love with each other and couldn't be without each other.. . .

I was pretty shocked. . .
I've never tried to make a move on him, because he almost always had a girlfriend. But I always knew they weren't so special to him, even if he made them believe so.
But I didn't know he had already found his other half. . .she had just dumped him before...
And it clearly was all my imagination that we had some sort of special bond...
I always thought that we had such a similar perspective on life and had lots of things in common, but also in some ways we were the opposites of each other. And he was there for me during my darkest hours. He took me to sleep in his arms once in a while and those nights were warm and peaceful.

So I'm still in some sort of zombie-state or something...it just came totally out of blue. And with all the shit that's been going on lately I'm just trying not to fall apart. I guess, I just thought that someday we'd end up together.

What a stupid, pathetic person I am.

Release me from this stress and pain~

off to sleep now -->

Daydreaming and art challenge

So I've decided to try this art challenge, I'll start it tomorrow. Hopefully I'll manage to do something worth watching at. ;D

Patience. Just keep going

Okay, let's do it! I've been reading a lot of great blogs and I've seen legs, legs, legs, skiiinny legs.

So I've decided now I'll really get those to myself!

- Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels!

After my exam week I'll go and try to get familiarized with gym stuff. If it feels good I'll start going there regularly. There are swimming pools too, the gym is upstairs~ I'm in heaven~

I love swimming, hopefully it'll be a start of something gorgeous!

 

Start of something new~

Aa, wouldn't you just like to go and jump there. Just lie there and read books~

Stress-escapes and fairies

I've been really stressed out with school and work. Everyday at work we're told to " Push it!"

Then before school starts I have a little time to do my homework, or stuff sweets into my mouth... Yesterday and today I ate two jelly rolls....... okay they weren't normal sized, but still they we're 200 grams...which is a lot in my opinion...

Now I'll seriously get a grip of myself and fucking lose weight and get fit!

I just became friends with this absolutely gorgeous girl. She is really skinny like a fragile little fairy, so so beautiful and delicate. Aaand also smart, funny and has good values. 

Maybe I have a bit of a crush ~ 

School + parrot fever

I had my first school day at my new school, everything seemed somewhat messed up. They hadn't really organized anything. I was just thinking how everything was better in my last school ;D oh well.
At least our math teacher is good, thank god ;D

I donated blood today for the first time. I already made the next date with my friend.

I made some great foundings at a flea market I hadn't been before today, they're so pretty~

 I have seriously been thinking of taking a parrot. I want one so badly, but I know i can't have one in the next five years. I want to have time to train it and all okay maybe I can have one after two years. Well, I shall see then ;D